3 MONTHS & A SPIRAL DOWNTURN

All we could do is to wait for guys to be knight. Those are girls.
All we could do is to wait for a princess to call us. Those are boys.

We are all waiting. But we never thought that sometimes waiting can be so difficult.
The agony of waking up every moment without someone to call our own or may be the pain when everyone else in the world has their soul mates and you haven't found yours.

After three months of nearly seeing heaven on earth, I found myself being drowned by my made-up fantasies and make-believe that promises are not meant to be broken but to be fulfilled. Hearing him say that both promises and illusion are the same, I can no longer hide all the pain that continues to poison my entire beliefs in love and life.
I came from a 5 year long relationship and I never thought that the same nightmare would come again to life after moving forward from that same kind of pain.

Yes, I am lady. I am girl who was left behind. I longed for someone to fight for me. Someone came to be the next person whom I should try my patience on. I am tired of believing and of waking up to a bitter reality. There are no princes, no fairy tales  no such thing as one true love. But on the other side of things, there's a part of me that hopes, that tries to make things fit perfectly, although there really was a mismatch on things.

I am in a living nightmare with someone I wished for and prayed for long time ago..This person is the person whom I fell in love with three times in 8 long years. I am still praying that he will suddenly have a change of heart. Cause, there's no one in this world that will complete me, except for him.

I still miss him.
We were not the same couples, like we used to be.
I love him.
He doesn't feel the same.